Letter To God in Hole

Dear God, I'm writing this letter to you
Cause I don't have a clue
Can you help me?
I'm sitting here simply trying to figure out
What my life's all about
Can you tell me?

I never wanted to be
The person you see
Can you tell who me I am?
I always wanted to die
But you kept me alive
Can you tell me who I am?

I lie awake conducting this symphony
That you have gifted to me
But I can ever sleep
Don't be mad but I get weak inside
And I start to fall apart
Cause I feel nothing

I never wanted to be
Some kind of comic relief
Please show me who I am
I've been tortured and scorned
Since the day that I was born
But I don't know who I am

And I thank you, man, for everything
Sorry I'm so frightened about all of this
But I wish I could give you more
And all the lights are shining down on me
And I feel intimated by it all

I never wanted to be the person you see
But thank you

Oh, God, please tell me now
Are you disappointed?
Are you proud?
Haven't I done everything, everything?

I'm so sorry I'm so weak
And I'll turn into a freak
But I don't know anything, anything

But I've lost all self esteem
From burying everything
And I feel nothing, nothing

Oh, God, please tell me now
Oh, God, please tell me now
Cause I feel nothing

Oh dear God I'm writing this letter to you
I am coming unglued
Please, help me